To Muffin,
I know, I know, it's not a really good topic to be gifted as your first gift. Well, stop making that creepy (wangad lag rhe ho) face. Btw, this is the surprise that you're having probably this time when you're reading this letter, we probably are married or maybe you turned out a great detective to find it out too soon before that ;) Aha! I love this blush of yours. The smile that says I FINALLY FOUND YOUR SURPRISE JAAN. "Yes, you did Honey".
Darl, I konw, that in you're mind you're saying, "Still, it's not what you gift as the first gift to your life partner. And you know na that I've waited way too long for this gift."
I know Hon, it isn't but, you know there are some things we resist to say but they need to be said ASAP.
I'm writing this to you on 28-03-2015, Saturday. We are arguing about whether or not you should join GATE coaching. I swear I had no idea that you never wished to join one. I thought it's the financial problem that is keeping you away from doing so. And believe me, I never did intend to push you into anything you didn't wanna do. I myself had decided to prepare for the exam at home, but I knew that I'm not a person with too much of dedication that this exam preparation demands. I knew, my management strategy sucks. Still, I was keen to sit at home and prepare for GATE all by myself surfing the topics at net, the tutorial videos and stuff. I told dad that I wanna prepare myself and this is how dad replied. "You know very well if you go to prepare yourself, you would actually be wasting the whole of the precious time surfing and searching for topics on net and till the end you wouldn't be confident whether you have done all that is needed for the exam. Whilst, when you go to an academy, you know they are professionals, they have all the materials and the needed shortcuts, all the information you need, they're updated, so that's the best option".
You know Hon, I've almost always respected dad's opinion, so that's what I'm gonna do today. The only reason I wanted you to join the coaching was that we both are same, we are not that capable to give that high amount of dedication that it demands, and besides dad said joining a coaching was the smartest thing to do.
Another reason that scares me off when you say that you would prepare yourself, and then you say you are happy if you don't qualify gate as you would still be placed somewhere after B.tech, is you know, my dad is way too much into the belief that one needs no more than two rooms to live, two pairs of clothes and two meals a day to survive. But he's keener to believe that his daughter, that is me, I've high standards and I'm resistant to compromise and adjustments. Whenever, a part comes in my life where life demands my adjustments and compromise, I tell dad that I'm capable to do so but he never let me do such things as he says I'd be upset in the end, I'd surely come out a loser in my attempt.
So the moral of the story is, God forbids, what if when the time comes for you to come to dad to talk about our marriage, and you maybe in some job that doesn't pay as much as dad thinks his daughter needs for her livelihood. What if, even when I promise that I would compromise and adjust as much as my marriage life demands just to be with you, but still dad remains keen that I wouldn't be happy, I wouldn't win this attempt, what if he says no to our relationship, what if he sends me some place that satisfies my standards according to him, what if he somehow takes me away from you, what if, we never have a future together. That's the thing that made me upset. You told me there was nothing in this topic to be upset about. But believe me there was way too much to make me upset and make me cry. And, the worst is, there was no way to explain these things then.
I really really wish Hon, that today when you're reading my letter, I really wish we're happily married, with the blessings of our parents, I really wish we've achieved the future we had once window shopped.
P.S. I MEESH YOU
Your love of the life,
Your Cupcake
M E E S H
I know, I know, it's not a really good topic to be gifted as your first gift. Well, stop making that creepy (wangad lag rhe ho) face. Btw, this is the surprise that you're having probably this time when you're reading this letter, we probably are married or maybe you turned out a great detective to find it out too soon before that ;) Aha! I love this blush of yours. The smile that says I FINALLY FOUND YOUR SURPRISE JAAN. "Yes, you did Honey".
Darl, I konw, that in you're mind you're saying, "Still, it's not what you gift as the first gift to your life partner. And you know na that I've waited way too long for this gift."
I know Hon, it isn't but, you know there are some things we resist to say but they need to be said ASAP.
I'm writing this to you on 28-03-2015, Saturday. We are arguing about whether or not you should join GATE coaching. I swear I had no idea that you never wished to join one. I thought it's the financial problem that is keeping you away from doing so. And believe me, I never did intend to push you into anything you didn't wanna do. I myself had decided to prepare for the exam at home, but I knew that I'm not a person with too much of dedication that this exam preparation demands. I knew, my management strategy sucks. Still, I was keen to sit at home and prepare for GATE all by myself surfing the topics at net, the tutorial videos and stuff. I told dad that I wanna prepare myself and this is how dad replied. "You know very well if you go to prepare yourself, you would actually be wasting the whole of the precious time surfing and searching for topics on net and till the end you wouldn't be confident whether you have done all that is needed for the exam. Whilst, when you go to an academy, you know they are professionals, they have all the materials and the needed shortcuts, all the information you need, they're updated, so that's the best option".
You know Hon, I've almost always respected dad's opinion, so that's what I'm gonna do today. The only reason I wanted you to join the coaching was that we both are same, we are not that capable to give that high amount of dedication that it demands, and besides dad said joining a coaching was the smartest thing to do.
Another reason that scares me off when you say that you would prepare yourself, and then you say you are happy if you don't qualify gate as you would still be placed somewhere after B.tech, is you know, my dad is way too much into the belief that one needs no more than two rooms to live, two pairs of clothes and two meals a day to survive. But he's keener to believe that his daughter, that is me, I've high standards and I'm resistant to compromise and adjustments. Whenever, a part comes in my life where life demands my adjustments and compromise, I tell dad that I'm capable to do so but he never let me do such things as he says I'd be upset in the end, I'd surely come out a loser in my attempt.
So the moral of the story is, God forbids, what if when the time comes for you to come to dad to talk about our marriage, and you maybe in some job that doesn't pay as much as dad thinks his daughter needs for her livelihood. What if, even when I promise that I would compromise and adjust as much as my marriage life demands just to be with you, but still dad remains keen that I wouldn't be happy, I wouldn't win this attempt, what if he says no to our relationship, what if he sends me some place that satisfies my standards according to him, what if he somehow takes me away from you, what if, we never have a future together. That's the thing that made me upset. You told me there was nothing in this topic to be upset about. But believe me there was way too much to make me upset and make me cry. And, the worst is, there was no way to explain these things then.
I really really wish Hon, that today when you're reading my letter, I really wish we're happily married, with the blessings of our parents, I really wish we've achieved the future we had once window shopped.
P.S. I MEESH YOU
Your love of the life,
Your Cupcake
M E E S H
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| Hum dono ese wangad lag rhe the :p |
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